I just feel lost and hopeless. I've been trying hard the last two years to improve myself and date again after a bad breakup, and I think I might have just screwed things up with the only girl I've gotten anywhere serious with since then. I just feel like shit.

I hate how my life is right now. I'm lonely, my friends are eh, and my parents are driving me nuts. I have a couple months before I move to college, and that feels like forever. Im leaving everything behind. I don't know how I'm going to make money or make new friends or find love or explore my passions, it all feels so daunting.

I'm working really really hard for my future self, and I'm not sure when or if that will manifest itself.

I hope and pray that this is all for the best, and over time things will fall together in a way that actually makes me feel happy and fulfilled. I just hope it's all going to work out.