My abusive molestor sister gave me a teddy bear. It's making me feel really bad / reminding me of bad memoires but I can't throw teddy out because it hurts him.I'm really stresst. I wish she idn't give me him but t's too late. I can't throw him away because that's mean. I can't look at him because he reminds me of being molested but I can't him because that's mean imagine spending the rest of your life in a drwaer. For years I put my best friend in the closet because he reminded me of bad memories and it was evil of me. I want someone to come take him away from me. If I was him I wouldn't want to be thrown away it's not his fault . I feel like a monster. if I tell my grandmother she'll punish me. I'm trying to get God to make him leave if I don't look at him but then I look back and he's still there and I'm getting told a lot of bad things.