Hello I'm new to Redpillwives. I'm a disabled 18 year old girl still in high school hopefully going to university soon. I am a permanent wheelchair user because I have cerebral palsy. Being a wheelchair user has made it intimidating for guys to see me as more than a "friend" or a "sister" I get told by many guys that I'm like a sister/brother/friend to them. Then, go on to date my more or less equally attractive friends than me. I am cheerful, outgoing, friendly even have my own feminine sense of style (mostly, sometimes I rock the plain grunge look) I am also quite petite 5"2"-5"5" tiny girl with a slight baby face. I get told by nearly everyone in an overly patronizing baby voice "omg my gosh you are so cute/adorable!" by even people younger than me.

I tried to make my self seem more "adult" by using big words and formal speech, even swearing and dirty humour (very embarrasingly which got eye rolls, laughs, and cringes which made them take me even less seriously!) The only time when I seemed to be taken as attractive and available as my other girl-friends was my prom night where I had my face caked with makeup and wearing an "adult-like" dress a few guys asked to dance with me.

Finding clothes and jewelry is hard too, what I'm wearing has to be past my knee's because I have deep, ugly, surgical scar wounds from operations when I was younger, it also has to be tight fitted so it doesn't get caught in the wheels. I also have quite broad shoulders for a girl and very thin everything else which makes it hard to find dresses my fit. Although I do have quite a few dresses that I like to wear on a regular basis I sometimes wish I where a shorter and/or flowing dress. Wearing jewellery is tough because I have to wear biker gloves to protect my hands from getting scrapes/bruises on them from pushing the wheelchair. I love wearing bracelets but I'm worried they will get caught and break if I push the wheelchair. I try to wear nice necklaces and clip-on earrings (because my ears are very sensitive and get infected easy) I also try to wear nice smelling perfume and natural makeup if any at all (I'm a natural 7/10 without makeup)

Despite all of this, it has taken quite a bit out of myself esteem because I'm 18 never been kissed, (except for the cheek) dated or been in a serious relationship and I'm a virgin. How do I improve this? Please, help me redpillwives!

P.S. I'm sorry for such a downer post I hope to be a more positive influence on this subreddit in the future. Thank you! <3

EDIT: I also, didn't mention I use an electric wheelchair when I'm at home but mostly use my manual wheelchair when I'm out and about. I'm also, wanting to use my manual one almost full time to increase my arm strength.