I'm struggling, ladies. I'm 38, married for 8.5 years. While I believe in red pill strategies, I struggle greatly to implement them during high emotion. Then I live in regret... Tell myself I'll do better next time... Fail... Lather, rinse, repeat. I get very down on myself and sometimes think I will never be a good partner, and perhaps my husband would simply be happier without me. Anyone dealt with these feelings? Is there a way to truly change?