Hello,

I´ve got through some serious changes in the last 3 or 4 years.. from a complete fat pc gamer nerd to IMO Fit and decently muscular body with a decent amount of confidence.. The only thing i was a little worried about was my experience with girls.. well.. i didnt have any. I was able to get some chances here and there because of my simple tactic - ask her and she says yes or no = ez , but after that i turned blue pill and was just friendly and they just disappeared from my life (two of them got someone into bed before i was able to even take a breath in to make a next move).

One night i was out with friends and one girl i like, i tried to separate her and me from the group but she wasnt really feeling it, so later that night when she went home i just went to the bar with the friends and was able to get a girl (almost literally).. she didnt want to at first but when she was about to leave i told her "what are you gonna do at home ? Thats no fun.. you are coming with me and you know you will". At that point we were kissing and it was already decided.

Life feels so ironic sometimes, most of the things i did before were wrong (bad food, bad habits, girls).

The only thing im worried about is that im not able to do any of this sober, i have to have couple shots in me to be able to relax. I guess becoming natural will take so much more time than with alcohol use (from shame even when drunk to touching and going for kisses etc - took me 2 years probably).

Dont know why i decided to write this here, i guess i discovered this community and it fits my newly discovered mindset. I thought my life was over at 18 or 19 years old, but now i just cant stress enough how self care and self improvement is important for you (exercising, finding new hobbies, being social etc).

Thanks if you read it all the way here.