"This is your last chance, after this there's no turning back." is the only warning Morpheus gives neo before presenting him with the pills in the matrix. And this is the only real danger that I see with TRP. Once you swallow the pill there really is no going back.
Intro
Yesterday i was driving with some friends. Things got a bit silly and we started daring each other to do stupid things. Sure it was juvenile but it was a way to pass the time on a long car ride. One of my friends was dared to text one of the popular girls from back in highschool something stupid like "hey, I like you. Do you like me." Like literally the stupidest thing but it really was that type of mood for some reason. The guy laughs and accepts the dare but then starts backing out of it with the excuse of "Not wanting to upset his girlfriend if she found out". I believe this was a genuine excuse as there really wasn't any other risks that would cause him to back out. This girl from highschool was irrelevant as fuck (I don't even think any one of us had even thought about her once since graduating, albeit I can only really speak for myself). All I could think was, "WTF? Why? So, if she found out? Wouldn't it be easy to explain how it was a joke. Why would she even find out in the first place? Is that even a believable text message? "Do you like me"??? Would his girlfriend really believe that her boyfriend was even capable of being such a faggot? Didn't he have the frame to stand up for his actions in this sad excuse of a prank?"
Needless to say I had no way to wrap my mind around how anything bad would come from the text (I know his girl: she's sweet, understanding, easy to relate to, good LTR material. I've even made 'guy jokes' with her in the past and she responded positively. Fuck, I might even have oneitis for this chick she seems so perfect).
So this has been clogging my mind for quite some time and it has made me think of how my outlook on intraseual relationships as a whole. An like Morpheus says in the matrix I understand that I can never really go back to my old ways.
Examples
Here are some RANDOM examples:
1.
-Before TRP I would think that a girl actually liked me if I was fucking her. I mean that she liked me because she thought I was special. You know, disney shit. I felt a deeper connection with them. If you catch my drift.
-Now It's all about 'having frame' and 'being a strong, high SMV man'. I'm super dominating during sex. I make it clear to them that I only use them for sex and that I don't take shit. As a result I don't build the same connection with them as I did in the past. I don't know if this is only from my side or mutual but I feel like the girls understand the dynamic as well and act accordingly. In essence, "Chads will always be chaded".
2.
-Old me was the guy who my friends would say "Fell in love with girls after the first time fucking them". I developed onitis fast and like aforementioned, would have an illusion that we had this special bond.
-New me has completely accepted that AWALT and Hypergamy exists and that there is no such thing as a perfect woman for me and that at any time a girl can and/or will branch swing, etc.
3.
-Old me was very active on social media. I believed that if I was liking a girls pics and she was liking mine back, then maaaaybe I had a chance of being with her.
-Now I see social media only as a means for people in general to have orbiters. I can't remember the last time I liked anything on Insta/Facebook. I barely open Snapstories. All I do is post occasionally to get a rush of validation and to (feel like I'm) stay(ing) relevant.
Conclusion
What's the point of these examples? Well, the thing is that I really feel like there is no turning back for me at this point. Even if I actively said,
"Hey, I'm sick of all this misogynist crap on this subreddit. Buzzfeed was right, I need to pick up a girl fresh off the CC and start providing for her and be her hubby. And that will make me feel like I have a connection with her. And if I like girls pics on Insta they will like me and maybe I'll score a kiss whooo knowwws??"
I don't think I could do it. Just like Victor Frankenstein, who sought forbidden knowledge later was unable to reverse what he had done once he had succeeded in acquiring this knowledge, even though his moral compass told him so.
I feel like a robot. Analytical, cynical, extrospective. I realize that my life will never be the Disney one. I will never feel the magic of believing that the girls I'm with are the ones for me. I will always look at my relationships though the eyes of an evolutionary psychologist (I'm the highest SMV person this girl has available to her right now). ETC, etc.
And to be honest this thought makes me sad. And I feel kinda empty. And life seems to have no meaning. And you guys can call me a faggot and a beta looser but I think that these feeling are warranted. It's the dilemma between the belief that your life is special and has meaning and knowing that you are just a piece of dog shit on the sole of the universe (if you could even give a human such high honors). Lot of guys come to the red pill to fuck more bitches but when all the bitches have been fucked there's nothing left. It doesn't dig deeper. Where's the sidebar entry for, "The life and death of an AF; 80 years of the perfect RP life"? And maybe that's just because that's how life is. The quest to spread one's seed cloaked by a false facade of meaning. And once you remove the facade, what are you left with?
Final Word
So here's what I have done to deal with this: I will accept that women will not love me as I want to be loved. I will accept that I am the only one that can bring meaning to my life and that this meaning will be defined by me. I will not hate people only because my eyes have been opened to their true nature. I can never go back to my ignorance so it is up to me to tailor my life so that I am happy.
TL;RD: RP strips the 3D goggles off your face and you are left seeing the dubble image on the screen. You can still enjoy the movie but the magic of the experience is gone and there is no mystery of how the 3d image is created. At least you won't have a headache.
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