Hello to you all. We have been dating for 3 years and 11 months. we USED to live together at her parents house. from 2014 to 2017. in early March she broke up with me because i didn't communicate enough about my feelings nor did i tell her what was happening in my family. but after breaking up with me 2weeks later she we met and she kissed me.. and we started the relationship again because she missed me and wanted to work on this problem together. since then i've lived with my mom at the moment At the moment i'm putting all the effort to ask if she wants to hang out, i feel i'm always the one to intimate kiss or sex. I'm always the one to begin conversations and keep them going. Somehow it makes me feel like she isn't interested anymore but she talk's about saving up together for a house which gives me hope you know? Maybe i'm just insecure because she broke it off once i'm also thinking if i'm just her monkey until she find's another. because i treat her nicely.

I feel like i'm just a guy who she now want's to keep around until she find's new one (BETA) I'm trying to go IDGAF but somehow i feel so bad if i do it!