Or at least i hope i did, im tired of this shit. I did not know about this community until very recently, but i can say i was already starting to understand most of this.

I tried to go to the army (as a kid i wanted to be a pilot, i dont like wars, i like to fly), and there they told me to do 50 push ups, the girl next to me had to do 30, thats when it hitted me.

"What the fuck? I know males are seen as physically stronger, but in such an activity, how can i trust someone that i already know that has lower capacities? will i die because of something like this?"

After that i created a new file on my brain, where i stored all the details where being an woman was an advantage, the state of that file? oh boy... too long to read.

But now here i am, i do the same mistakes over and over, im 24 years old, i had 3 girlfriends and something like 7 fuck friends, i was never able to date the girls i was most interested in, the girls i gave everything for (3 girls, spending almost 2 years being that guy to each one of them).

How the fuck do i know i wont do it all again? How can i make sure i wont do it?

It seems impossible to me, they just fucking get me, and all they need is some blonde hair and a good ass...