I hope this shit does't get deleted...

Ever since I took the pill I've been going through some strange internal transformations. I don't know if it's just a way to shield myself from not being played with by women ever again or it's simply the logical outcome of being self aware and keeping my eyes open. I no longer put any weight in any promise that anyone does to me, nor do I feel myself obliged to follow through any promises of my own if the situation is no longer advantageous for me.

You see, ever since I was a boy I've always had the ability to get women to fall in love with me. And this is nothing to brag about, because as we all here know a woman's love is as conditional as anything else in life, and because I couldn't just make ANY woman fall in love with me... but the ones I did got to kiss/fuck successfully were pretty much attached to me, at least for a couple of months until I ended it up because I wasn't really into them. Two times I fell in love, and the two times I got cheated on. These two experiences really destroyed me, because I would never have done the same to the girls who were in love with me... I always had this innate disgust for dishonesty, and I figured these girls were just in love with me as I was with them, so they couldn't cheat on me. Fucktard...

But after every time I got cheated on, I became a stronger version of myself. Maybe for all the wrong reasons, since my motivation was to "show them" why they had been wrong. After a while (usually around 6-8 months), I was doing better again, and at least I was in improved version of my former self. But I never connected the dots until I found out about the PUA community, and later on... this infamous place. But this is probably where I disagrees with most people from this community: I no longer feel the need to be a honorable person. I wouldn't fuck with anyone business wise, but I have definitely become that fucker your mom warned your sisters about. I currently have 2 girlfriends and two plates... they are the four most beautiful women I've ever been with, at least two of them are by all appearances great girls, and my former self would have probably fallen for them as well... but now??? Fuck them. I only trust my close family, because as far as I am concerned blood is the only true bond between humans... The other day I found out one of my plates is on okCupid, even though she had sent me all these retarded and sentimental messages the day before. I started going through her answers and DAMN THAT BITCH IS SO FULL OF SHIT. I don't give a shit... I sent her a message laughing at her. I was supposed to meet her that night and she had not been replying my texts. When she saw the message she answered and made a scene about me being a player... IF WE ARE BOTH HERE, WE ARE BOTH PLAYERS. And that's the bottom line for me,... this is the fucking jungle and if you are not a player you are a sucker. If there is one skill you should try to develop is acting. Everyone her talks about keeping frame,... well that shit isnt natural at first, so there you have some practice. But if are like me, and you just don't give a shit anymore, you can give it even more machiavelic uses to it.

"If you're playing a poker game and you look around the table and and can't tell who the sucker is, it's you." - Paul Newman