So, the dynamics with my manager is really, really interesting. He's total narcisist, maybe even sociopat. He manipulates, plays mind tricks so you feel guilt etc. Reading "when I say no, I feal guilt" for me is not so much about my wife, but 60% about my manager, 30% about my mother then followed by father, wife etc...

Anyway, my manager is a total manipulator. BUT! My job is actually quite nice and pays very nicely. So I've learned to live with it.

Now going alpha, I can't contain it to a part of my life. One is alpha or isnt. Which puts my relation and job at risk.

How do I cope?