Long time lurker here. Been on this board since 2015, read most of the sidebar, dabbled with diet and lifting but never really committed to the whole pill. Started sprinkling alpha on it with limited success as you would guess. Truly dgaf after six months of reading and lifting. Was stuck in the anger phase completely for at least a year. Said fuck it and began to try out what I learned about pua to try to spin plates.

 Was completely oi about everything in regards to relationship,  didn't care if it ended, didn't care about sex with her,  was absolutely miserable and depressed after learning about the true nature of the female species.    Picked up two plates and had some really amazing experiences.  These experiences cemented the truth of red pill.  I would run a game on girls and they ate it up.  Women are easy but after time it was hollow.  Don't know what the end game is now.  I can pick up women,  but I realize now that they can't provide anything to fill the empty.   Considering mgtow and burning it all to the ground.  Maybe I'm still angry that my blue pill fantasy is all a load of shit.  I guess this is my puke.  Just wondering if this gets any better than freaky sex.   I've committed to 60 days as I regret not doing it last year.   I think it's me that is the problem and hopefully this will make me a better man.

Let me have it guys..