Still not alpha working on that had to light the fire again under my ass again to work on improving myself.

My current dilemma is school and work. I chose to pursue nursing in order to long term make more money and possibly go through NP. It's been 8 months of struggles with working full time but I'm nearing the end in 7 months. I will make more and work less hours and could work more and make more. It's a fairly secure profession nothing extravagant.

She is shit/comfort testing me constantly lately.

  • Part time has cut down our/my income in order to focus on school - we discussed it. She agreed we could make it work and I could not be on the boarder line of not passing in a difficult class (fucking OB last semester and now Pediatrics is the class that even some 4.0 students struggle to pass. I'll take critical care any day over OB.)

  • Considered taking out a loan in May to help the last few months and pay it back once I graduate and get to work

  • Tells me she's tired of putting life on hold. - I was in paramedic school when we got married. We've talked kids. I want to be able to give my kids more than I had and make our salaries combined in the long run. She says money isn't everything but wants expensive things. Can't have the cake and eat it too.

  • I've become interally pissed so I need to get back to lifting things

  • Not too worried but definitely need to get into shape myself especially after hearing the "I have motivation again to get in shape. To look good."

Most of this sparked recently after she realized she has to talk to a person over the phone about adding me to her insurance.

Advice? Considerations? Need more data to go off of?