My gf LTR is a virgin (except for handjob/oral). Got oral from 2 guys before. Gave oral with one guy before one time years ago. It sucked. She loved him. He left her, I think because she didnt want to have sex before marriage even though his explicit excuse was different.

I have an ok n count as a guy and I dont care about increasing it. I'm committed to her. We love each other deeply. She knows about this and my much more extensive sexual history (compared to her) so I feel like a complete hypocrite even thinking about this because I had actual sex with people.

I'm not concerned that she misses anything from her previous relationships. I satisfy her in every way.

But something is nagging at me about this. It wasn't at first because I only dealt with one virgin before and the rest of the women I didn't think twice about their sexual history (not virgins). I never asked any of my partners and whatever they revealed was volunteered. I only focused on that they are with me now and they choose to be with me now (doesn't belong to me...only my turn).

I'm not sure why I'm scrutinizing this more with her even though she has done the least stuff of anyone I had ever gone out with or been intimate with.

It may be because she loved this dude and I think it kind of sucks thinking of their happy moments together. It sucks thinking of their intimacy together (and the other guy who gave her oral).

I love this girl and dont want to fuck it up. I'm looking for some advice on how to deal with this and process it because I think this is entirely a problem in my head and I think rationally these are dumbass thoughts. Hypocritical thoughts. I didnt have them before. I have them now. Please help me put this into perspective and maybe share if you felt the same thing at some point and what you did about it or how you dealt with it.

P.S. I am aware that people are not always honest about their sexual past so let's just go with what I believe is the truth is the truth and that I'm not just naive.