'sup trp folks, two days ago I had a suicidial topic here asking for help on how to get over shit I had to go through.

the decision has been made, as crappy as my life is, there's nowhere to go but up. I decided to commit to improving my life and my health first.

thankfully i have been reading TRP for quite some time, so I got the basics down. here's my harsh reality check (so u can tell me in which areas I can improve).

looks: 7/10. at one time I weighed 140kgs, now down to 105, started lifting, some muscle gained, I was probably 5 at best, went bald, shaved it, looks better actually, I have a sexy beard so it adds some value to my looks. working out and dressing well, any other tips?

confidence: ZERO. while I can make conversation easily with anyone my insecurities and fucked up traumas keep me down. I am a fucking god when I get drunk. you get what i mean

bitches: no plates forks or spoons atm. last 2.5 yo LTR cheated on me 3months ago, was fucked up, still seeing sparks but im over that now.

game: actually pretty good when im at my best but i never approach. very insecure and low confidence. its like hell to me. but there are times when i magically feel good abouy myself (for about 6 seconds) and i can chat hoes up pretty easily. how do I improve or get into game? note that interaction is pretty hard for me (not bitching).

money: self employed, can spare some cash to invest in myself.

socia life: not that great. i got lots of male friends, activities include smoking weed working n shit. most of them are losers such as myself.

goals: i was suicidial 2days ago, i made a vow to myself that I would make an awesome. life for myself. even if I fuck up on the way.

wome are non existent in my life (unless something happens magically). biggest issues: confidence and low self esteem.

how would u improve in each of these areas?

thanks a bunch