I've been lurking around trp and the related subs for a year or two but it never became more than that. I am a 5'8" 100 pound skinny fat 16 yr piece of shit and I don't want to live like this anymore.

My girlfriend of exactly one year and four days suddenly texted me telling me she's just not attracted to me physically anymore. It was something I joked around a lot about for the past ~6-7 months since around last February when slowly over the course of a few months our sex life down (to the point where in the past month she wouldn't even make out with me and in the past week or so she wouldn't even kiss me). I broke up with her. I quit. Even if she was (literally) the hottest girl I could ever get to even look my way and even if I'm about as 'beta' as they come, I won't throw away my pride.

I feel kind of lost. As much as I hate to admit it, my life kind of revolved around her. I have no friends of my own whatsoever, the large majority of people tend to hate me, I don't really even have hobbies. I don't know where to go from here but I know I want to change. Socially, mentally and especially physically. I want it all to change. I'm a useless sack of shit and I want to improve.

I know nobody can make these changes for me so all I want is a small push in the right direction.