You read the title.

I didn’t have any real experience with girls prior. I had only kissed one truly high quality, good looking girl, and really hadn’t “tried” to shoot my shot on many despite having quite a bit of opportunity.

I’m 6’4, BP 240, DL 415 OHP 145. In college still, and have a good job (47/hour) doing SEO consulting while I wrap up my degree. My whole focus has been on career/work/gym.

I met a really hot girl. Dated her for six months. Physically hot as fuck, like a perfect sex doll. Tall, super fit, and flexible as fuck. Mentally, very book smart, 4.0 GPA at a top ranked school but completely nuts. Radical leftist, 3rd wave feminist, major SJW in every sense. Going to gay parades, violent protests, literally assaulting police officers on at least one occasion. Instagram bio literally is saying that we should have open borders in the US, that all 22 million illegals should get full citizenship and college, and healthcare. Posts only about politics on social media stories, mostly thirst traps as posts, even sharing emails and phone numbers of relevant government agencies so that her followers will mass spam call/email them.

Literally debated me once, saying that a transgender women (a man) should be allowed to compete in women’s combat sports. Not joking at all.

At one point, she developed pretty heavy feelings and I got scared as fuck, because physically she had everything I wanted, I had oneitis like a MF but still mentally I saw all the red flags and the unpleasantness that comes from seeing someone ideologically possessed and thought “she’s obviously smart but she’s absolutely batshit”. I got bad feelings being around her, because it was all ideologically driven speech.

It didn’t happen. I eventually told her I didn’t want to be with her anymore and that ended, on pretty decent terms I had thought. I’d said the whole “you’re incredible, I’m just busy pursuing X, Y, Z to be in a relationship right now”. She was super upset but eventually understood.

I even called 5 days after the breakup and apologized if I’d hurt her. (Completely BP I know, I just felt bad). She said it was fine, because I’d been direct about it.

I was kinda heartbroken, even though it was the right thing.

I then saw her in public months later where we used to volunteer together. I was cordial, she acted like a complete bitch. I called her out on it on the spot, asking WTF her deal was and she got super upset and irritated.

Stupidly, I texted her afterwards, saying I hope everything is good with her/her family. She responds super enthusiastic and giving this whole paragraph about how she loves me and how things have just been hard lately.

I suggest a coffee hangout. She agrees, and then flakes on the day of without a word to cancel or reschedule.

On principle, I had no choice but to block her. So I did.

I 100% plan on trying to meet other girls after the virus. I’m working hard on my goals. But I’m stuck hard on her physical beauty, and I couldn’t believe that I was so forthright and kind, and still got disrespected like that by a girl that I cared about.

I need some tough love guys. I don’t have all the experiences with girls yet so that I can just instantly “move on” because she’s just another girl. She’s my second hot girl and first LTR.

Let me know what you think. I know I acted like an idiot.