My anxiety has become so severe I shake constantly at my job. The more time I spend socializing the worse it gets. I have so many dreams and ambitions but I can't even function as a normal human being any longer. I called out of work today because the shaking was so bad yesterday and I felt like I was going to vomit the whole time.

Feel free to review my two prior posts for more details.

I can't bear my anxiety any longer. 8 years of panic attacks. No sex. Very few to almost no friends. Little support from family. I'm reaching a point where the suffering of being in front of other human beings outweighs my goals, ambitions, and love for animals and my siblings. I'm mentally broken and there is no fixing me. I wonder if my copious pot smoking as a teenager imbued some kind of low-level schizophrenia in me that equates to just being constantly afraid of everything around me. My mind is poisoned and I don't feel I can work in front of people any longer - I'm not willing to, that is. I'm too afraid of feeling like I'm going to die for 4+ hours straight.

I don't know what to do with myself. I'm shaking as I'm writing this. I'm thinking about the most painless way I could finish life. I feel like I'm getting brain zaps/tingles in parts of my brain that I can't comprehend. Last night I felt like I was losing my sanity and couldn't focus for hours after work.

There must be something out there that can lower my anxiety to a point where I can function as a human being. Otherwise I'm going to be seriously looking into the possibility of getting on disability and becoming a social recluse.