After being falsely accused of beating a woman 5 years ago, and being falsely accused of sexual assault, all before the age of 20, having people who don't even fucking know me think I'm some kind of woman abuser, being bullied all my life, being physically abused by my mother until I outgrew her, then being verbally abused, being scapegoated all my life, I've lost the little bit of masculine drive I had. I don't feel motivated to do much anymore, and I just feel entirely detached. I have so many opportunities to succeed and move past all this bullshit that doesn't really matter. But I just feel numb. I've never been the angry type, so I don't transmute all of these negative experiences to motivate myself.

So how do you create that masculine drive? And please don't comment anything about women or female nature. I don't give a fuck about female nature, I've heard enough of this, I don't need to know more about it. I get it. Female nature is all we fucking talk about. Can we talk about how to motivate ourselves to do anything besides chase pussy? How do you create that masculine drive? How do you create emotion in yourself to drive you to do things. Because forcing yourself only goes so far, you have to want it. And there's a huge difference between intellectual and emotional motivation. Emotional motivation takes you a lot further. So how can I create this for myself?