I know Imma get roasted, but I'm posting this here cause I know you guys won't bullshit me.

Long story short, I've always wanted an LTR and it seems like every relationship I've had with a girl falls apart. I've known about the red pill for years, I hit the gym and do my best to spin plates to no avail.

This is going to sound like some beta shit, but the thing that matters most to me is just being intimate with someone I care about. I don't give a fuck about sex. I'm not interested in fucking 10 girls I have nothing in common with. But I know cause of hypergamy this is just a pipedream, it's not sustainable.

I'm burnt out at this point. I go to the gym and work out of pure necessity, only so I don't lose progress. I don't give a shit about money, fitness, or a future anymore. Life is a constant performance with no payoff and it feels like hell.

The hopes I had for a relationship are crumbling. I know it isn't possible and it's surreal to experience.

How are you guys keeping motivated? If you have a problem with my viewpoint I understand, honestly it isn't healthy. I'm not alpha at all so I'm seeking advice.