I went 3 years of pornography and masturbation addiction. An addiction that rendered me afraid to venture outside of my mom's basement. During this time, the longest nofap time I went was a mere 10 days in the entire 3-year span. Furthermore, I was also sexually objectifying woman down to the T; they were walking bodies with a warm-soft insertion place that I only dreamed of being privileged to experience. During this time, I had serious nerves around women and could hardly breathe and concentrate in the vicinity of a hot girl. Obviously due to unfathomable amount of neediness.

I've been improving my game lately and in the past month I have made life-changing results to my personality. I have approached 20 girls a day and have at-least gotten 1-2 numbers per day. I have also hooked up with and layed multiple women as well. I conquered my fears head on and I can say with upmost ease that I feel little to no anxiety around any women I talk to now.

The different now is that since laying 2 weeks ago, I had a significant change in my sexual desires, or rather lack of sexual objectification. I no longer talk to women as something they can offer me but as people with interests and unique senses of personality, as a side note they are also very attractive at times with sometimes well-groomed bodies. I can still spot an attractive girl vs unattractive but the way I speak to them differs not. I now go about my daily life without once thinking about sex or masterbaition nor pornography. However, in the past week of me going out and day-game approaching, any sexual vibes and great chemistry with a women will lead to me having a boner and being ready to absolutely plow her. Example, just yesterday on campus I approached a girl and we were both very into each other and at one point very touchy with each other and hugging for a long time. I had a visible boner. It seems I no longer long for sex, instead of good reactions from women that make me feel good about myself and remind me that I am a beast and attractive and confident and all of these things.

I believe I fall fallen into the trap of being content with phone numbers since they give me validation, and pursuing woman further and the fear of them getting to know me scares the shit out of me. Hence why I am comfortable going out at night, interactions are short, sets hook or not, if they do you bang, if you they dont you move on, but that barrier of revealing your true self is never a serious problem.