Sup Seddit.

Going through a rough stage at the moment so I just really want to talk and get advice. Its been a good 3 weeks since I ended a 5 year relationship (she cheated on me and pretty much lied to me throughout the 5 years).

I'm just really struggling in coming to terms with everything, being single for the first time and trying to get back into everything. I mean the worst part of it is that she was my first girlfriend. I feel as if the whole world has moved on without me while I was stuck in a relationship with the wrong person.

I really want to get back out there and improve myself and get confidence back. But I just find myself feeling depressed over everything. I went out 2 weeks ago, and didn't really have much luck. I got 2 # closes but I didn't call them back (one of them was probably fake). I was far too drunk and probably made an ass of myself.

I've been talking to a chick I used to know from school and developed some sort of feelings for her, and I don't even know why because we haven't really spoke too much. I guess it's probably cause she's cute and the first girl I've properly talked to while being single and just the urge to get back into another relationship for the sake of it and to forget everything bad that happened. She probably doesn't like me since she didn't even reply to my hello today! And I don't even know why the fuck I'm getting butthurt over a girl who I hardly know anymore.

I know all the logical moves to do, go out improve my game, get my confidence back etc but I still crave for a relationship and I don't even know why.

Does sarging and meeting more and more people help kill this feeling? I know I'm not ready for another relationship. I have my final year of university so I really don't think relationship would be wise at all.

I just find myself lost, unmotivated and lacking direction in my life since this break up. I think most of the time what is the point in everything and can't really sleep anymore.

Just feel frustrated at myself I didn't just dump my ex earlier when I started university and enjoyed my life a lot more instead of wasting time on her.

Sorry for the rant Seddit, just feeling really shitty atm.

TL;DR - Feeling butthurt over a girl who won't reply on facebook, butthurt over wasting 5 years on my ex. Just want to get into another relationship for the sake of it (eventhough I know its a bad idea). Wanting to know if sarging and talking to more people will help me get out of this low mood.