My grandma passed away on thanksgiving last year so I've been doing a lot of soul searching/reevaluating what is important to me in life. Maybe I'm making an excuse but because of that I put a complete hold on women until last night...

My friend recently got engaged so we went out simply to celebrate, in my head before going out I mentally told myself that I was now ready to try and "put myself out there". Insert this bar where a women comes up to me and this is what happens...

Her: Hey are you [name]?

 

Me: Yea! How do you know me?

 

Her: I recognized you from LinkedIN (I'm pretty involved in our local community/Chamber/etc.) (Now this is where I don't understand what happened/the part where I keep repeating it in my head to think if something else happened then how I recall it)  

 

Me:Cool! I think here I motion for us to sit down at these nearby chairs to talk. Her body language instantly changes to disinterested and simply wont respond to anything I say, I don't remember what I said... and she walks away  

 

Now the bar was loud, I was nervous, and who knows what other factors were in play but I dunno it just kinda shattered my confidence. Fast forward to next bar and I see a cute girl I go up to her and introduce myself. She says "no thank you". Trying to get back on the horse but I def feel rusty...

Cherry on the top on the way hope (I bike) an animal popped out in front of me and I try to avoid it eating shit in the process. I'm fine but I have some pretty nasty wounds and my bike is dinged up.

Thanks for the support.