Not gonna lie, today was not a good day at all, but I want to hold myself accountable so I’m gonna post every time I go out regardless of how bad the day was. I get to the town, and I decide to warm up with some compliments, but I just couldn’t get myself to say anything, I was too stuck in my head. Contrary to the previous times, I let this affect my mood, which didn’t help. I decided to take a 5 minute break to get some food, and as I was walking there I see this really cute blonde chick standing on the sidewalk eating some ice cream. There wasn’t any possible excuse that I could make to not approach her, so I go near her........only for me to not be able to say anything and look like a deer in front of headlights, so I walk away to avoid making it even more awkward. This really annoyed me because she clearly wasn’t doing anything and looked open to having a conversation, yet I still pussied out once again. After this I saw a group of 3 girls waiting at a crosswalk , one of them was an 8. I make eye contact with the HB8 but I immediately looked away because I thought she was looking at me funny, and I kept walking, and that was the day. Overall like I said this was a terrible day, I was operating on 5 hours of sleep so that was definitely a contributing factor.

Takeaways: My self esteem with girls is absolutely fucking shot, I’m at the point where I subconsciously feel inferior to them for no reason. I know approaching shouldn’t feel like a big deal but I still assume the worst despite making an effort have a more positive outlook. Onto the next day I guess