We met up at a restaurant close to my apt and then we went to my apt. I thought hey, this movie will be awesome for her if she is a little tipsy. She likes drinking a bit anyhow so I get her a glass of some alcohol and we chat and I show her my kick ass entertainment center / home sit down arcade system I built. We then go to the first theater where they are only showing in 3D and I can't watch those as it fucks with my glasses and she said she would puke from it anyhow.

We go to the second theater and pick Real Steal instead of the Harrold and Kumar movie.

I ended up putting my arm around her (I don't know how I usually get sex but I must just jump right into it because I generally don't even do this arm thing or whatever else. Hm... I want to practice though lol). She is digging it and we share our snacks and drink.

I feel her shivering and I ask if she is cold. She says she is so I throw my coat over her. I go to the bathroom and come back and go to grab her hand. She is into it. Later on she pulls away a bit to stretch so I retract my hand. Then she moves in closer to me so I get her hand again and she is receptive to it. I like the intimate things like holding hands and locking fingers. Not sure what others think but hey.

So the movie has a kid in a little older than my boy. I won't get to see my boy anymore pretty soon, probably, so I start to tear up. I can't help it man. Not sure if she noticed but dude, it was killing me. I get over it somehow and the movie ends. I wanted to kiss her but I didn't know when. I guess just should have gone for it as soon as it entered my mind similar to holding her hand or putting my arm around her.

Come to find out she has huge issues with sitting long time in the cold because of a condition she has that fucks with her joints in those situations. It was like the fucking artic circle up in there. Sheesh. Oh well I was warm enough without the coat and she needed it more than I did. Yea yea, I am a bit of a romantic.

Anyhow she drives me back to my place as she has to work at 5am. Told her we will have to hang out soon again. I then texted her a while later telling her that I would have kissed her but I had to really pee and that we both were freezing our asses off. Told her we would drink and be warm and then we could kiss and get into other trouble next time. She seemed to be cool with that.

Thoughts

  • Could have bailed on the movie and just said, "Let's cut the pleasantries, we like each other and we want to fuck so let's go back to my place and have a good time"

  • Could have made it less boring and went straight to kissing and sex if I would have had music to play in my living room because then I could have just been silly and said, fuck it, let's dance and be goofy. Then made out with her and led her to the bedroom. She has a kick ass booty and a nice rack and for some reason a face I find really cute. She's nerdy and I like that shit. Yum.

  • Could have made out with her in the movie whenever the fuck I thought about it instead of waiting for the right moment. Right moments don't ever come GOD DAMN IT!!! Seriously, they don't. Just fucking man up, break through your weird goofy fear and go for it. If she repels from you because of it, then who cares. Go your speed, not hers... ok not all the time at least. You want a girl that is cool with you, then be cool with yourself and your decisions. Be confident in what you do or it will freak her out. She follows your cues. If you are unsure, then she is unsure. If you seem confident, then she probably will accept your actions. If she is repulsed that is her place. Don't cock-block yourself. Your job is to push forward while her job is to deny or accept. Don't make that decision for her, you selfish fuck. I do this and shouldn't. It's damn ridiculous to fuck yourself when nobody has said they will say no. Let them say no, don't do it yourself. That just sucks. Let's do this together and just rock.

  • Could have just gotten close to her on my couch, turned to her, put my hand on her face and moved in for a kiss and boom, made the night get a little crazy.

BTW - can I make albums of MP3s on DVDs to play on a playstation or xbox or hell even just a regular DVD player? If so... how? I would love to have some music to play next time I wanna dance in the living room.