Oh man, I blew it left and right and up and down... failed an obvious shit test, ignored her too much, made my move too late. It's embarrassing. She actually told me she was disappointed I didn't try harder to pick her up. I don't know what happened. I think I like this girl a bit too much, and it was fucking with my head. But, well, she still went home with me... for a really good fuck, and still seems interested. I really don't deserve it. I think maybe lesbians are a bit more forgiving than straight girls. But, I want to make the best of it from here on out. I really like this girl. I don't want to get oneitis though. She's going out of town for a while, and I think I need to use that time to meet some other girls.

I'm not sure what advice I'm looking for, if any. I just kind of wanted to check-in and maybe hear some words of encouragement that I can bounce back and handle this right from now on. I'm trying to ignore the fact that I got so lucky and learn something from my fuck ups. I just get sort of scared and confused and react to the situation instead of acting and creating the situation I want.

Thanks for reading this. It really helps to talk about it here. I like you guys. :)