I've read enough theory. I'm ready. I'm ready to take this night on completely solo. Now I know I'm going to be so afraid my stomach is going to swallow it self up. I'll be completely petrified walking in, knowing no one, and finding a spot to be. That's. o.k.

There's no other way to do this but to go out and learn. There's no fucking shortcuts to this shit. The only way to get over approach anxiety, is to just fucking do it. Do it fucking scared even. I'm driving a little under an hour to go out and practice my night game in Chicago. I have no idea what to expect, shitting bricks, but I can't go home. I won't let myself.

I have to get up at 4:00 AM, but I need this to happen. It's my only free night this week. I'm fucking ready. Lets go.