I always complained how I never had a girlfriend and how I friendzone every girl I meet. I work as an actor, singer and designer so I meet alot of people and im the typical extroverted guy who approach people and always find something to talk to. But I always thought that finding girls would be an automatic process. That I dont need to do much if u look good and are a bit charming. But that's not really true. After asking that one girl out I recognized that, that was my first time ever. It didnt make me sad quite the contrary actually. I was happy and proud. Were still in good terms and I still think that shes interested but i dont rly care about that. No I recognized that I should atleast show my intentions if I meet a girl. The hard to get guy only works if ur open and show some connection. I always acted like the good friend but never like someone she could get. So yesterday I was partying and met a good friend. We laughed and danced together. I was a bit more pushy then normally and she asked if I could take her home cause both of us had the same way. Ahe said she wants to make something to eat so I said that I'm hungry too. Well after that I taked her home and things went on. Tbh I'm a bit annoyed. Nobody told me how shit like this works and it's not a science but it still never came up to my mind. I watched videos like "How to be more charming" or "How even u can get a girlfriend" and I always thought that nothing helps because I'm already doing all of this stuff. Only one thing i never did. Its just to switch from the friendly friend guy to someone the girl could imagine to hook up with. The rejection girl still just sees me as a friend and that's only my fault. She gave alot if hints and I never used them. So she kinda gave up and I came up out of the blue. I'm writing this to remind myself and to push my inner boundaries I had set up over the last 24 years.