Recently I've been getting blown out a lot. In the past month the numbers I've gotten have for the most part been flakey or not willing to meet up. I've been trying to make my interactions longer lasting to build more of a connection. But even then the girl just isn't as excited/committed to want to meet up. The girls just give excuses when I know that they probably have some time in their schedules to set up a hang out with me if they really wanted to. I've tried being more relaxed, being more jokey, being more present, being more centered. Yet I can't detect any noticeable pattern each time I present myself in a different way. Even when I just approach as fully myself the same recipe follows: I open, I chat a bit, suggest a hang out, she 70% of the time just says sure or maybe, I get the number, go to text it, she gives an excuse.

For that matter I've started to feel all negative and having thoughts like, "why should I even open that girl? she's just going to reject me anyway". I've approached a decent amount of hot girls in my time but none have panned out to anything. My successes are far and far in between each other. So out in the field when I do daygame I just think, "what's the point, I'll just get rejected as usual". But I know deep down inside that if I don't do this, if I don't try, I'll never get anywhere with any hot girls. It's like a vicious entrapment of being forced to keep trying and putting in all this effort for nothing. Essentially I have to make a choice. The frustration and annoyance with having to approach several girls and hoping something falls through with one of them or just facing the fact that I won't get to experience sex or have a girlfriend for as long as I avoid option A. What a painful choice to have to make, coupled with the painful life/reality that I live in.