This is mostly a rant, but my question is this: does anyone have any tips for how to make your sober self resemble your drunk self a bit more?

I have never met anyone who has a bigger gap between drunk vs sober as me. Sober I'm decently confident but cannot flirt whatsoever (unless drunk me has already established a physical relationship with the person).

My nights out go like this: arrive at the party/bar, notice who the most gorgeous women are, then proceed to get buzzed with my friends, at this point I'm still shit with women. Then I have a few more drinks and boom, I'm black out drunk (note, this doesn't take me very many drinks at all, and it's not drinking to the point of illness or anything, I just black out really, really easily). Some time later, my mind "wakes up" and I'm suddenly making out (or doing more) with one of the women I was creeping on earlier, who sober me would've never had a chance with (and I've tried talking to girls sober, believe me).

Now when I say "wake up", it's like I warped to that spot from the time I started drinking. So I know 0 details about the person including their name, what they do/study, and most frustrating of all, how I approached and convinced them to get with me.

Over the years I got so frustrated I recently started grilling the ones I'd meet up with again, asking how I approached them and why they got with me. Every time it's something unique to the situation, always a bit weird/quirky, and unfortunately, never something I would think fast enough to do sober and even if I did, could never pull off in an attractive way (it would be awkward/cringey/creepy).

I know it's weird but one thing I'm going to do is have my phone record the audio of an entire night out sometime, which may not help too much since it doesn't sound like words have had too much to do with it, but I'm getting desperate. I always figured I'd close the gap with age, but that didn't happen. I'm also at the age where finding "the one" would be nice and socializing opportunities are getting fewer.