I rather deal with being lonely than deal with the pain of rejection which makes me feel even more lonely.

Everytime I get rejected, whether it's a girl from tinder ghosting me or a rejection in real life, I go home, cry and am in the bed for the rest of the day and can't do anything. The pain is just too much. I cant "suck it up" or "be a man about it". It's just too traumautizing for me. Maybe it's because of my past and how I've never received much love or affection or validation in my life. I've never been in a relationship and struggled to make friends my whole life. I've never cold approached because the chance of rejection is extremely high and I wouldn't be able to do it. I feel like every rejection just makes the wound bigger. I don't know what to fucking do.