The pressure of having to always come up with something to say lest it becomes awkward

The constant judgments I'm under, especially if the other party is a woman

The never ending comparing of me to all the other people who are funnier, more interesting or simply naturals who I will never compare to

That I run out of energy to keep up this charade just a few minutes into the interaction, and the rest is just pure torture

Seeing people just sit down and talk is the wildest thing ever. I'll never understand that. Why would you put yourself through that