I'm this -><- close to the point where I stop caring and just get rid of most of my insecurities, exchanging them for massive amounts of confidence out of nowhere due to ceasing to question my own every move, and instead just trying out random things to see if they'll get me somewhere.

The "Fuck it, I wanna see what happens"-mindset.

In particular, I intend to go out and talk to women who I deem pretty (who I'd normally never dare approaching) and try to strike a conversation in any way whatsoever, and if I don't know what to say, just revert to natural honesty and tell them that I wanted to approach them because I thought they were cute/attractive/pretty/whatever.

Just today, while grocery shopping, I approached an attractive woman and exchanged a few friendly smiling words with her, even making her laugh. Nothing big, just 30 seconds of chatter and then wished her a good one and went on with my day, but it felt like success. Like I overcame my fear.

One of my experimental, yet somewhat utopic goals - given the rise of hookup culture, the fact that women are apparently equally horny as men, and the fact that I don't want to lose opportunities by imagining scenarios rather than really doing something - would be to try and be as direct as I can:

To introduce myself and tell them, without pressure, that I think they're handsome and that the idea of kissing them (in my bed) sparks great joy within my mind, or something along the lines. Hint that I want to do the deed with them, without the use of blatantly vulgar or sexual language. Whilst making sure that she doesn't feel intimidated or harrassed in any way or form, and is free to respond however she likes and I won't mind, et cetera.

I've arrived at a point where I'm willing to try out just about anything to finally make a change in my lonely, warmth-depraved life.