So I thought I had inner game, turns out it's completely externally based. An example would be my confidence has been shot to shit due to some skin condition I've been getting treated for (possibly MRSA).

Another example would be I thought I didn't give a fuck when out, but I realized that if I'm not with female friends giving me validation, I wind up falling into the ways of my guy friends (drinks clutching chest, etc.)

I understand the concepts of inner game, but I'm having a huge issue internalizing them. I thought I had it, but I don't at all apparently (I'm also sure the seasonal depression I get isn't helping matters). It has come to the point where I'm not even interested in going out or opening people anymore.