Situation is much worse than it should be. Basically, age 26, almost kissless virgin with bad social skills, aspie, in a place that is full of alphas and good looking guys, everyone seems like a confident extrovert, which makes me look even more out of place.

Throughout my teenage years, I got some attention from girls, but I was too afraid of making a move because I was afraid of them getting to know me, how insecure, unmasculine, awkward I was, so I abstained from girls all together. Spent most of my life indoors playing video games, not because I was addicted or anything, simply because I never got what I wanted out of handing out.

I never got the respect, the "vibe", the connection from those that I hung out with (true to this day). Guys are easier to get along with, but they among themselves have this sort of "language" that they speak in, as in they recognize that they are on the same "Level" and I'm obviously not.

Went from 60 --> 95kg and my looks took a heavy hit.Virtually no IOI from any girls. Am currently gymming and trying to lose weight, hopefully 20kg in 6 months. Realistic.It's the other stuff that I'm worried about. From the minute I meet a girl they seem very cold and uninterested, any time I talk to them I can feel they insta friendzone me and I know I can't pursue them. I've never really flirted with a girl and I'm really awkward, I guess they sense my low level and are probably disgusted. It's like they don't even see me as a male.

All I really want from life is to become good with girls, have a good sex life and somehow gain a social life. I'm starting from scratch here, so I'm really really down right now. I'm on semen retention and I've been redpilled for years, however, when your "baseline" is so low, even getting a kiss is like a holy grail and extremely difficult. What demotivates me right now from mass-talking to many girls is that I never get IOI's from any of them. I don't really want to wait until I lose weight to start, I need some action now, even a kiss would skyrocket me. I'm not expecting you to understand this as you've never been this low, point is, I missed out on a lot in life and I want to gain at least some percentage of a normal guy's life, so focusing on my "mission" isn't really something I'm too concerned about since I have this huge hole in my life that I need to fill. Just one girl would be enough to jump start my evolution, so how do I get to that point is the question ....