And it feels like a bittersweet moment for me. I’m happy I got the monkey off my back, however it was awful sex. I was not attracted to the girl (I met her randomly at a bar), I couldn’t get my dick hard (when I did I stuck it in but it went soft.

I think I might have Erectyle dysfunction problems, and I could of possibly contracted an STD as well. Now that the monkey is off my back, I can be more confident when doing approaches, however I have a couple of other monkeys on my back, but if I can deal with 27 years of virginity, then I think I can tackle whatever is next. I hope to one day find a meaningful relationship but at the same time I feel like I need more experience

Update: I took an std test and results came back negative. Now that I got it in for the first time, and no stds i feel a huge weight off my shoulders and I know what to expect for next time. The ED is something I have to deal with but other than that I feel like things are looking up