I have posted a lot on here but I came to conclusion I’m not like others. So I want to share my story.
I have been doing good with girls and stuff before my last relationship.
Then I went into serious relationship of 3 years which ended 6 months ago that broke me.
I was fat after surgery. Mentally broken.
My father was a rich man, I was really fit always regarded as hot but as time moved on my father lost a lot of money so my future isn’t as secured as it was.
Currently trying to get back to what I was but still I don’t think I’ll be the same.
Now I have this pressure to hit on women because my goals is to have a girlfriend who is ( I would say hot) and get financially independent like my father was. The thing is I see all these people that I’ll to become but they have connections with girls like that I don’t and I fear if I won’t master this skill and become a super seducer who can seduce everyone then when I would like to find a girlfriend again I won’t be able to.

I was a player before but I wasn’t aware of all these stuff or myself - I was just flirting having fun and enjoying myself. My ex was always happy and talking about how I am a player that I’m confident and more stuff that I projected.
But now I just can’t.
I’m not financially secure (so the path of women coming to me or being high circle is drawn out),I’m not that high (1.75cm) and while I look good I ain’t Brad Pitt.

I’m having trouble thinking of openers+transition+ the first 5 minutes is can’t think of topics and what to talk about.