Has anyone read the book "I dont want to talk about it"? It's an incredible book about depression in men. The key idea is that many men have "covert depression", which is depression kept below the surface through "running away" behaviors--anything that keeps the pain at bay. These behaviors are by definition addictive. I'm in the middle of some overt (no longer beneath the surface) depression which has me wondering: is pick up (for me) an addictive chasing of highs to medicate my depression? I'm thinking the answer is yes.

I'm not asking for mental health advice. I'm just wondering if anyone has considered this and if they have any thoughts on it. I also wonder if Tom Torrero was using pickup to self medicate. According to the theory, the self medicating of pain through addiction eventually stops working. And then very bad shit can potentially happen, such as suicide.