Feeling overwhelmed with regret. I’m too slow with escalation and expressing my interest directly. I’ve been talking to a lot more girls but can’t get myself to open up and express my attraction, don’t know why.

I’m confident with approaching girls but when it comes to conversation and connecting I hold back.

I’ll have a conversation with a girl and always break it off and self sabotage, pulling away without getting her number or asking her out. (My subconscious habits are f***ing me)

A lot of my habits are aligned with my childhood way of thinking. I want to change but i feel way too identified with them so it’s difficult.

One of my habits that I want to change is: when I make eye contact with a girl, I smile but I’m not enjoying it or coming from a place of attraction but how I think I should act in that situation which makes me feel disconnected from myself and the interaction. (Bringing awareness into this and creating a different association and feeling seems very difficult, maybe there is a core belief I have that’s keep this pattern alive.)