Im age 32 m and Imma be honest. This has been the worst year of my life that i was hoping turned out better. So im taking a break for 6 months to focus on myself.

I noticed that i am not in the right place right now to get the quality of women i want. Here’s my issue

I struggle with porn and sex addiction I am depressed because of that and don’t do things i love anymore When i try and get results i fumble them My hygiene is not the best even when i try. Im short and chubby Rely on alcohol to overcome my social anxiety and shyness I am awkward , not intelligent and have no control over my emotions I don’t stand up for myself enough because i lack confidence, lack ability to articulate my thoughts clearly and cant fight good. My job became unhealthy for me to be at

This year i had alot of bs happen to me. Lost money Got into a fight with a friend and stranded(we got over it but i am bad shoulder, hurt and have scars)

I know i sound fked up right now but what would you guys do to bounce back

I really just need some advice and encouragement to get myself confident again to approach women