I was doing pickup for about three years. Starting in 2013. I was happy for the first time in my life. It was as if I came finally free from the prison I spent my whole life in.

Then came 2016. I never wanted to stop, but something happened back than. As if someone flipped a switch, from one second to another, I suddenly became depressed. Since that day I cant really enjoy things. I do stuff, I meet friends, I go out, but nothing is fun. I dont know why I do it. I just do it. I recently thought I should care more about myself, do things that I like. But there are no things that I like anymore.

It's been this way since 4 years now. I started therapy quite soon. Going there twice a week now. Later started with meds. Still haven't found the right one. I'm learning things about myself in therapy, but I dont feel like anything really changed regarding my depression.

So I'm thinking, why not go back to those people that already once helped me change my life. I want to be free again. I'm asking you for help.

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Has anyone of you ever had depression and worked themselfs out of it?
Whats your story? What helped you? What advice can you give to someone still struggling?
Any recommendations on things to read?