Just wanted to thank you guys for your help. I’ve made a series of posts chronicling my separation, and i’ve reached out regarding doubts, etc…

Not going to lie, I’m still scared shitless for the future. Im dreading mediation, so worried about something bad happening. Then the divorce date itself. And then the fear that I’ve made a huge mistake. The insecurities and fear of dieing alone. And the worst part is these thoughts come and go. I couldn’t imagine having kids or shared assets involved.

I just saw someone post a few mins ago on a days old thread that i have the key to my own prison: if i go back to my ex i’m locking myself up. I really appreciated that as it knocked some sense in to me.

Thanks again guys. Again, not much of a reddit user, but i’m very thankful this forum exists. I have no family nor friends, and my therapist is a literal POS that parrots the same platitudes ad nausea every session: “you have to give it time” , “you are doing everything you need to do”, etc…