Not sure where to put this-- r/Relationships is way too blue pill. I'll give it a shot here.

Me [M37] GF [F37] dating 1.5 years, live about 45 min apart so we see each other maybe once a week. I'm cocky/funny in person, red pill to a T. She texted me the other day- "You're a dick. But you're MY dick ;-)" So that tells me I'm doing a good job. Here's the problem: When I'm not with her for a few days I feel the need to send her a gushing, beta email about how much I miss her. And I do, I really miss being around her or having her in my bed daily. Due to circumstances, we can't move closer together.

I know if I get too mushy it's a huge turnoff. How do I deal with these feelings? I'd also like to be able to throw in some Dread Game but really don't know how to do it as well given the distance. Any thoughts? Anyone else deal with beta backsliding feelings?

tl;dr I'm trying to be RP but feel myself beta backsliding when away from my girl for several days. Need to try to fix those blue pill feelings.