I think I end up saying some completely weird /crazy shit sometimes while trying to be funny or just to talk. It doesnt happen on a daily basis, but I think it's the reason people avoid me in college and did so in high school.

Some guys I thought I was friends with have avoided me and I didnt realize that at the moment but I now have after judging their actions towards me. I am a bit desperate yes, but this is because winter break is about in about 2 weeks and I have no official friend group,and hang out with whoever I find. It sucks because theres a high chance I will have no one to go out with during winter break and will spend my 18th birthday alone. It sucks but I think I will have to deal with it.

I want to stop this but I keep end up saying stupid shit.

I may get answers like people forget what you say etc., but it's a big turn off for people who meet me.

Summary ; I lift 6 times a week, go to a good college, but my social skills are shit. My interpersonal skills/everything for me is good at home and I have good relations with my family but I suck outside.