TL;DR – I'm desperately, suicidally undersexed. I can't figure out why and I don't know what to do.

I'm a 26-year-old male in a city of 500,000. I'm not that bad looking (about a 6-8), I dress better than most guys I see, I'm often one of the funniest guys in the room, I'm very healthy and in shape, I have a very high sex drive, I'm assertive, I'm intelligent, I'm very socially aware - my point is that I have a lot of good qualities that women are usually attracted to. When I'm in the presence of attractive girls at work, we flirt often, heavily, and explicitly, but they're all faithful to their boyfriends. However, throughout my life I've fucked only two girls who weren't prostitutes. I've never – never - had a girlfriend. When I was younger, my female friends would fuck literally all my male friends on a regular basis and I was the only one left out. I still can't figure out why. I can't figure out what I was doing wrong, but I'm obviously still doing it. I quit drugs and alcohol when I was 17, so I lost all my drug and alcohol friends and haven't really established an alternative social life since, partially because I didn't want to (I don't like most people) and partially because I didn't know where to start.

So now I'm at a point where I'm about ready to kill myself due to the devastating lack of pussy in my life. Sex is all I can think about. I don't really have other sources of gratification on my life, and I'm determined to make sex my main form of gratification, and my main hobby. Presently, all I really care about is sexual validation. (I know that this mentality is discouraged here, but after long introspection, I realized that it's the only thing I want right now. I don't really see anything else worth living for.) I just don't know what to do. It seems very weird and awkward to attend a bar, pub, or club alone and not drink alcohol. They're alcohol-based venues. I regularly attend coffee shops, but I almost never see attractive women there, and the few that I've seen have been busy working. I don't know of any other social venues that would allow me more than 10 seconds to go and talk to a girl. I see attractive girls throughout my regular errands and such, but it's for 5-10 seconds at a time. I usually say hi and do some small talk, but it's never enough to segue to a phone number request.

My desperation cannot be understated. I now have daily episodes in which I shake and cry out of desperate frustration after reflecting upon my situation. I feel devastated by the inequality in the amount of sex I've had compared to other people my age. They've had more partners, more instances of sex, and, since they were younger at the time, higher quality sex. The last thing I can cope with as long as I start having sex a lot, with a lot of people, immediately. Watching porn has had the bittersweet effect of motivating me to fuck a lot more, but depressing me because of my inability to do so. There aren't any reliable statistics around regarding how frequently and with how many partners people have sex, so I can only really go by what I've observed, and what I've observed is people hooking up with much, much more than 4-7 people throughout their lifetimes, which is what a popular study concluded. My main goal in life is to fuck 100 women. That will calm my feelings of sexual jealousy and insecurity. That will make me feel like I've lived a fulfilling life. Making connections beyond sex is important, too, but it's not what's most important to me right now.

I'm not looking for book recommendations at the moment. I need to do something about this in the next week or two, otherwise I'll lose my mind, if I haven't already.

Please help. I've never felt this frustrated, confused, and desperate in my life, because I don't know what to do about it.

So what can I do? I don't expect anyone here to help me cope with the past – you're not my therapists – but I could use some seduction advice that's specific to my situation. Do I need to just shut up and start going to bars alone and not drinking? I was diagnosed with social anxiety disorder, and although I've been working like hell to fight it, it still makes doing stuff like this difficult. Do I need to just start hanging around bars, pubs, clubs, and coffee shops regularly? Won't I be instantly labeled “the weird, creepy, desperate loner who hangs around all the time”? Again, I don't really have friends that will go to these places with me. I've read a lot of literature, watched a lot of videos, and I'm eager to experiment, but I don't know how to start.

I've also tried all the online dating sites for the past year and none of them have worked, and I put a lot of effort into them.

Pardon the length. I needed to vent. I could go on for days, but I'll have mercy on you and stop now.