Not 20 minutes ago in the meal hall, I got into an argument with a guy who was telling me that I am privileged, being a white male... Now, all of my life I have felt none of this special privileged, losing scholarships and job opportunities to people that I know for a fact I was more qualified for (due to either knowing the other applicants or being told by people in the organization with which I interviewed). So I argued that white males are no more privileged on the whole than anyone else is and this fucking asshole starts tearing into me about how I must be one of this MRM douche-bags who thinks hitting women is okay and that they shouldn't be allowed to vote (I personally see myself as an egalitarian, with leanings towards men's issues to being male). I then make the argument that MRM is nothing like that and explain calmly the different topics I've seen focused on in the past 6 months that I've been observing the movement... I mention one word about circumcision and he immediately rips into me being "one of those crazy circumcision conspiracy theorists". Now, I am angry, but I can hold my own in a heated argument. What made it worse was the mockery and ridicule that came from the rest of the surrounding people (a couple of whom I once called friend, though that has likely changed completely).

The ridicule got so bad that I literally could not get a word out until I fucking snapped, unleashing a barrage of cursing in the voice I am only capable of doing when I am two steps away from seeing red. I proceeded packing up my shit to leave, knowing that if I continued in there, the knife I carry for utility and defense would have been firmly embedded into someone.

I can't even fucking think right now. I am so angry hat my throat is closing (has only ever happened once before). This is only the last straw in my situation where I feel further and further isolated because I can't find anyone who shares enough of my beliefs or is able to put aside the ones they don't agree with long enough to treat me like a fucking human being and not some sort of trash.

To those who read, thanks for hearing me out, and to those who chose to ignore this, I don't fault you, I am merely venting and just want this out of my head and in text.

Edit: Spell checked.