Soo I’m trying to level up and move on from being a pick me I was in an emotionally/verbally abusive relationship from 2016-2018 he was my first serious relationship so I thought... he introduced me to his family , took me on vacations, cooked for me but never told me “ I love you” I would ask him why and he would say “ don’t worry I’m almost there I will love you soon” and my dumb ass would still be telling him “ I love you “ everyday thinking that would make him start saying it to me but it never happened and he claimed it was mainly because I made him use a condom during sex and claimed that he couldn’t “ love me cause he couldn’t feel the real me” it was hurtful and embarrassing cause he knew I’m allergic to birth control pills and I wanted to wait for an engagement before thinking about having kids & unprotected sex. And he claimed that even “ high school girls “ use the pull out method and why couldn’t I ?? And told me he could never love me cause I didn’t live with him or let him hit raw that was what literally broke us up since then I’ve had a few hook ups and dudes mention how they can’t feel much with a condom and those statements just remind me of my ex and make me upset all over again SO WAS I WRONG FOR NOT HAVING UNPROTECTED SEX WITH MY EX OF 2 YEARS???? Btw I was 22 and he was 31 at the time