Healing has been so messy, where I find myself being triggered even over a year after the assault. Dated a guy that I really clicked with, but despite how well he treated me in the beginning, he started shaming me for my body. I felt so ashamed of myself, so powerless and weak. Despite how much I continued learning and practicing self defense, he kept telling me how everything that made me feel empowered was pointless since I’m smaller than most people. Thankfully that relationship is now over. I recently started pursuing martial arts more seriously, so I can feel safe within my own body again. Definitely far from where I want to be, but what matters is that I’m getting closer everyday. Thank you all for your support on this journey ❣️