I’ve been in FDS for a year and a half. And i’ve successfully managed to stay away from OLD and scrotes in that time period. My senses are heightened and I’m quick to point out scrotery. I’ve never been happier being single. I used to look at couples with envy in public, wishing I could be the woman.

I had one guy that I really liked years ago. He does not live in my country anymore. And somehow I’ve gotten it into my head that I could talk to him again which is SO not FDS 😓

I will NOT message him first. I will not try to rekindle whatever we had. He was seriously the most handsome, tall guy I had ever seen in my lifetime. But a huge scrote.

Idk what went through my head to think there was hope in this situation. I feel annoyed that my brain came up with this guy as a serious romantic connection again. It’s done. It’s in the past. I’ll never see him again. And I know better than to go chasing after a man. But my brain dredged up some muck, a guy I had not thought of at all for three years.

How do I knock away these feelings and the false hope? I know not to reach out to this guy, but I wake up with such hopelessness that we failed and it frustrates me. I’m turning into my pick-me self and after years of peace from thinking of this guy he comes back to torment me.