I'm 21F and a lot of my friends describe me as naive and innocent. And say that I'm too pure for this dating world. I've always been a relationship type of girl and have been in 2 ltr so I've been somewhat cushioned from how the real world dating works. I'm also a virgin by choice.

So I met this guy through hinge, firstly when he made out with me I felt it was somewhat coerced? Or maybe I was dumb and naive. But i ended up really liking it (which is surprising because I'm aj asexual and I have never even felt things while kissing) My friends think he is dangerous, I'm gonna explain my whole situation so there's no room for unbiasedness.

I met him on hinge, he (28M) said initially on text that he didn't want anything too serious and naive me thought 😀 he meant not marriage because he's old enough to get married in my country ( India). Anyway, we used to talk and he was never sexual on texts which I really liked BC before that I was dating a guy who used to talk about sex a lot but would respect my boundaries in person (didn't do anything more than hand holding).

So when we decided to meet he asked me to meet me at his house for the first date. To which I declined. And he was very pleasant about it and said he understood that he didn't want to make me uncomfortable or unsafe. But he chose a cafe that was near his place , since it was popular I didn't suspect anything. And then he asked if we could watch world cup togeyher I agreed but only for public screening he was like we'll see. I also have a very strict curfew and strict parents who don't let me out on weekends and my curfew is 6pm. He skipped work to have lunch with me.

We had lunch, he was very kind he was sweet to the baby next to us, sweet to the gentleman who was sitting near us and was considerate to order the staff to give out food to stray dogs. But he finished his food in 20 mins while I didn't even start and he asked if we should leave for his house to watch the match. I was idk feeling confused BC I didn't finish my lunch and secondly my driver had just dropped me and I felt if i called him back to pick me up just after 20 mins it would be a hassle for him and rude. So idk after a lot of thought I just asked him if he won't do anything and he said depends on u and 😭naive me believed him and I went to his home.

😭At his house he did make a move on me, my body language was all stay away from me but he asked me to come close and just made out with me. I told him no but I'm a very soft spoken girl by nature so idk that's why he didn't take it seriously. Since I didn't expect him to make out with me my body and mind just went blank and I kept saying to myself that I was dumb and that I knew this would happen.

But 😭the weirdest thing is after a while i started to enjoy it. The way he touched me was giving me chills and shocks. Seriously i remember scooting further from him and he touched and caressed my hips and idk my body was 😭 getting shocks literally. I was just staring at him in disbelief at how my body was reacting. Even the he kissed me was so different. I got bruises and swollen lips from his kisses. I was really caught by surprise on how my body was reacting. I've never felt like this, I've made out with guys but i used to always feel bored or feel nothing but with him it was different.

I came back with mixed feelings as I enjoyed what he did to me but I didn't want to do it too soon + I expected nothing of that sort to happen. 😔 Even tho my mind said I should leave this guy , but my body remembered his touch and we eventually decided to meet soon. This is where things got a little more murky.

So he asked me to come over and I wanted to and I said yes. But our timings didn't match, eventually he said he's going away for a month. So he needed to meet me before going I was like sure. So we had a plan to have lunch somewhere and then go to his place. But he said he had a meeting so couldn't afford to. And he was using time crunch as an excuse. So i said this to my guy friend he told me that his friends used time crunch and guilt as an excuse to make girls do anything they wanted. So he adviced me to either just meet up with him casually or meet after he comes back from work.

So I told him that Im not comfortable with the time crunch, so if he wanted to meet me just for a coffee or to hang out we could but if he didn't wanted to we could hang out after he came back. To which he agreed. 😭 But he went back to suggesting places near his house again and my friend was warning me that he is not taking no for answer that he thinks he will convince me after i meet him. I suggested a place near my house and he agreed to that.

On the date, similar things happened. He finished two drinks in 10 mins and asked if we should leave for his house 😭 I hadn't even touched my coffee btw I was so shocked I was like wtfgg. Did he not read my texts and I was panicking somewhat. But at the same time my body was very reactive to him idk some words he would say would literally do sth to my body and I used to just be caught with surprise by how sensitive my body was towards him. But yeah still him wanting to go home soon was scaring me a bit even tho I said no to him. Anyway he even talked about how when I say no it means a yes. That got me even more scared 😭 I asked what does that mean how would he know when I mean no, he said I would say NOO in an agressive tone. But I'm a very soft spoken feminine shy person my no is going to be different than someone who is outspoken etc etc.

Anyway he kept asking me if he should call his driver and eventually he called his driver 😭. I was like I need some time to think and I went to the washroom I called my friend and he said that I should leave asap. And use my brother as an excuse.

Which I did , he was fine and said it's fine u can go. Since this place was near my house I didn't call my driver and I started to walk back home. Bad move 😭 he saw me and called me and confronted why I had lied. And then he asked me to come back. This went on and the car stafted following me ( but I'm not sure) and he kept calling me to come inside his car. I was lowkey scared so I turned back went the other way and hid behind parked cars. Since it was a one way road his car stopped. I said if he wants me to come inside his car he has to take me to a public place ( as I thought i embarassed him front of his driver's so idk yeah I'm naive really). He got angry and left finally. My friends told me this isn't normal.

When I confronted him for following me with his car he gaslighted me saying he never followed me. But idk the truth anymore. So our last conversation was a fight.

Around one month has past since this incidence. But my stupid body still cannot forget the way he touched me and tje way he makes me feel 😭 I miss him even tho I know he is bad and dangerous. I've never felt like this before. Idk what to do please help me.