We met in 2007 and fell in love. We used to share everything and never stayed apart, in short, we literally spent half of our lives together.

I went into severe depression due to failed career and got ED. I was in fear and lost all my confidence, ignoring her and her needs. She's in constant sadness. I couldn't see her in that condition and started to get better by talking to a therapist.

She made few friends during her master which kept her happy and I was so glad, which helped me get even better. However, there's a guy. She called him bestie and I trusted him and her. She started to get close to him and gradually moved away from me emotionally. I was scared to take a stand and ask her to stop talking to him for fear of losing her.

After 3 and half years, I've seen some close pictures and when I confronted she said she was sleeping with him. I asked her to leave it behind and let's move away far from all this. She's not interested and neither wants a relationship with him (He took advantage of the situation and she knew it. No matter how much I assured her that I'll take care of her, she's not trusting me)

We're going for divorce now. I'm in constant pain, everything thing reminds me of her and it's killing me. She's all I know, She's all I have and She's everything I share with however small it might be. I don't want to bother her or her happiness. How do I move past this?